Preparing to go back to Indonesia from furlough always proves a hectic time. There are goodbyes to be said, details to be finished and last minute supplies to be bought. This furlough I had a hard time finding shoes to my liking. I love flip flops, but they have to have thick, supportive soles because I wear them on tile floors all day long. I searched every store and website I could think of to find a suitable replacement for my old ones. I finally found one style that I thought might work, but they were dressier than my old pair and had some sparkle to them. A row of diamond-like jewels crowned each strap.
The Sunday before returning to Indonesia we attended a large church with my husband’s sister. Throughout the entire service I was constantly reminded that it’s all about Christ. I needed to hear that. Furlough is a great break from the field, but it can also be so busy that it sometimes takes my focus away from Christ. I was re-energized with the fact that Christ is my sufficiency. It wasn’t all about having perfect supplies to take back, like my diamond-studded flip flops that I had worn to church that morning!
As I picked up my son from the Sunday school class, a man squeezed by me and inadvertently stepped on my foot. As I examined my throbbing toe, I realized that he had knocked one of the diamonds off my flip flop. My heart sank as the only pair of nice flip flops I had found were already tarnished before I even got to take them back to Indonesia! I was really looking forward to having a perfect pair of shoes— just for a little while!
But as we walked out to the car I realized that God had a purpose in me losing my diamond. Now I had a visual reminder of the message I had heard that day. It wasn’t about my own sufficiency or perfection, but all about Christ. My perfect pair of shoes weren’t perfect anymore. I decided that every time I wear those shoes in Indonesia I would remember it’s not about me doing things perfectly, but about Christ’s power working perfectly through my weakness and insufficiency.